Thursday, January 1, 2009

5 months...

Where in the world has time gone?! I cannot believe it's been 5 months since our little man left us. It seems much too long to be without him, and it just breaks my heart to think about it.

It scares me to think that we've been without him that long, and it scares me even more to think that one day, we'll have been without him for much longer. What am I going to do when it hits 5 years? 5 years without my Cameron.......how does this happen?

It just makes the journey home seem that much further away. I've always said that I keep myself peaceful by reminding myself that I will go home one day and I will see his sweet face. It just hit me how far away that really is (God willing).

And his anniversaries always seem to fall on some big day. October it was Halloween and yesterday it was New Years Eve. I had nothing to celebrate yesterday. We had some friends over, but I was just out of it. Because that's when it hit me that this is going by too fast.

It's like when you love someone and then they leave. The first couple of weeks are hard, but you just had them there, so it comforts you some. Then, next thing you know, it's been 5 months and you realize how much you really miss them now...

...here's to hoping 2009 goes by slow and is full of happiness...

4 comments:

Mrs. Mother said...

Time does fly by. Jan. 12 will be five months for us. Congrats on your pregnancy. I know it will be wonderful.

Never forgetting Gregory said...

It does seem like forever ago since we saw our little ones. I'm sorry you had Cameron's anniversary on NYE and hope that 2009 brings you happiness and peace.

Beth said...

I'm sorry the anniversaries have been hard for you. Certain dates are just triggers for us, I guess. I hope that your pregnancy is going well!

Carly said...

Dear Hollie,

I know how you are feeling. In 23 sleep my little boy will be turning two...... two years in Heaven. I don't know where this time goes. His birthday is on Australia Day. There is a public holiday down here so we will never have to work on his birthday. We can watch the fireworks and pretend they are for him :)

I want to wish you a safe and beautiful pregnancy. Congratulations :)

Wishing this year does not rush by for you and is filled with many precious moments.

Love Carly x