Early scare

I had a bit of a scare today. But apparently it's normal, and I need to chill out.

Yeah...right.

I was at work and went to the bathroom. I looked down and saw brown in my underwear. I wasn't too worried because it was brown, but when I wiped there was bright red on the toilet paper.

My hear immediately sank! I sat there for a minute and wiped again...this time, just a pink color.

I got up and went back about my business and came back about 15min later just to double check. This time there was barely anything there. Just some more brown stuff. I felt a bit better

I came home and quickly took a cheap dollar tree HPT. It came out positive, which also made me feel better, because up until today, I was not able to get a + on any other test than the blue dye test! Apparently those are super sensitive(?)!!

I did call the Dr. while at work and the lady told me that the results wouldn't be in for 2-3 days! Are you friggin kidding me?! I despise our family Dr. office! Don't get me wrong, they're great there, but they take FOREVER to get anything done! And, if I don't call to get the numbers, I doubt I would ever know because they never call anyone back! Grrr!!


So, I'm just trying to take it easy and not worry too much. That was my biggest fear. That because of what happened with Cameron, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the next pregnancy. Yes, I'm scared, but I really am trying not to be negative. It won't get me anywhere, and won't help this next baby any.

Looking at this baby as a precious gift from Cameron makes me feel better too. I know he's watching over all of us, and he's going to try his hardest to make sure his little brother or sister is healthy!

I'm nervous about my first ultrasounds and what not. It's going to be very hard. The last heartbeat I heard was Cameron's, and he was the last baby I saw. It's going to be strange looking at this new little life and knowing that it's not Cameron.