Wednesday, September 10, 2008

First Dr. appointment...

My first Dr. appointment since Cameron left us is tomorrow...

I'm anxious to have my questioned answered, but there's a feeling in the pit of my stomach. I can't explain it, but it makes me half sick.. I think just the thought of going in there is screwing with me.

Every other time I had been in there, I had a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby growing inside me.
Now I'm going in there with an empty belly and only memories of my baby boy. Heavy, aching arms and a broken heart. What woman should walk into a place like that feeling that way?

I scheduled my appointment early in the morning to avoid masses of pregnant women and newborns. They're usually not too busy in the morning, but you never know. Part of me wishes they could just zip me back into my room, but I don't want to feel like a total outcast.

Be back tomorrow afternoon with the update...

2 comments:

Mrs. Mother said...

I hope tomorrow is easy for you. I know when I went for my follow-up and also the day Jenna died, they whisked me back pretty fast. The nurse and my doctor both said they didn't want me to have to wait out there for long. It is hard, so I'm offering big hugs to you.

Jessica said...

My today be gentle on you. After my diagnosis, going and sitting in that waiting room was pure torture. I think they sensed that and made my wait as short as humanly possible. You will be in toughts today!